Good day house, please I need advice. Almost two years ago I made some dumb choices about leaving home with someone I didn't know very well. I was r.ped. That's over simplifying, but hard to spit out nonetheless. Three men forcefully used me for pleasure, both an.l s.x, and or.l. It was just like something you would see in a movie. It was absolutely awful for me. I still have the clothes I was wearing, in the bottom of my wardrobe, blood on my jeans, from just their force, and blood from my scratching. They left me in a hotel room, scared to death, in pain. I called nearby family member to pick me up, after I had changed and showered. They were worried to death about me, but I told them nothing had happened. I had just changed my mind about leaving home that I didn't have enough money, etc. I never went through with any kind of counseling. I was so embarrassed. I thought I was fine, really. And I didn't need anyone's help. What could they do anyway? I didn't want to press charges, was always sure of that, and I thought I would somehow be forced into doing that if I talked to anyone. I put it out of my mind, and was quite successful. I just don't respond the way I should to love anymore, and it's becoming a problem. I don't know how to react when people treat me well. Is that insane? And s.xually, I'm so submissive, I don't know what it is that I even want from a spouse. I just don't care about that anymore. I want to please someone else. The reason I'm bringing this up now is I've been thinking I need to go to counseling, even though it's been a couple of years since the incident. Incident? Is it normal, in these cases, for it to hit you so hard so long after it's happened? Should I talk to someone?