Good day house, please I need your help with this. I'm new here, I joined to post about this issue and for some honest feedback. I'm in my mid 30's, consider myself to be an attractive woman. My husband is 10 years older; we've been together 4 years. He's a great man--hardworking, sweet, an amazing father, among many other qualities. I am not quick to trust men, but from the start I felt I could trust him. We've begun to build a great life together (a home, kids, etc). My main complaint is not enough s.x. We have s.x once, maybe twice a week and he says his drive isn't as high as mine. When I was 6 months pregnant with our son (who just turned 2) I discovered that he had been looking at a p.rn site online. I was crushed. If I wasn't pregnant I may have considered ending the relationship though I knew I loved him then as well as now. Ironically, I had just asked him 2 days prior what really turns him on, in an effort to increase our sex life. I asked if he looks at p.rn, he said no. I might have been able to get over the deep feeling of betrayal if the content of the p.rn was different. The links that he viewed were all teenage girls. Mostly anal s.x, which I know is his preference. I hate it and feel violated when we do, to the point of tears (he doesn't know that much) but I do it so he is satisfied and interested. I just can't get the images of these girls out of my head. I've looked at the site on my own, almost obsessively. He swears he doesn't prefer young girls. Well, at his age of 46 I don't care is the girls are 15 or if they are 20. He was very embarrassed, remorseful, apologetic and explained that a collegue told him to check out the site. Promised never to do it again, and I believe him. I don't know how to move on. He says I haven't forgiven him, and I feel I have forgiven him, I'm just so depressed and anxious about feeling so betrayed. I'm driving myself crazy. If he seemed more interested in s.x with me I likely would have been able to get over this. I obsess about it and have driven him crazy with my thoughts.