Good day to the mamalette and the papalette in the house, please I need your candid advice cos m at a crossroad here, my story is long but I will try n make it short, growing up was so hard for me since I lost my father at a tender age, I was 8 when my father died,so since then things were very very hard cos it's just my mum that is left with taking care of us no relatives knew how we were faring up till now, when I was growing up in this hardship I fall into the hand of a guy when I was 17.I had no choice cos he was giving me money then the first time we made love I became pregnant (that is d first time I had s.x and the only time cos I didn't do it willingly) after 5 months my mum told me I am pregnant as a young girl that has never experienced that kinda thing I never could have thought I was pregnant meanwhile my mum knew but refused to let me know cos she said if she had let me know I would have informed the guy and he might persuade me to abort it(i was in ss2 then) so I had no choice than to keep the pregnancy,i gave birth to a boy, the father n I then we in the same class so nothing ever happened between us since then cos he left town and neva ask about the child,a year after my waec I fall into another trap n became pregnant again, the guy denied the pregnancy then n I was scared to go for abortion so I kept the baby again, the 2nd child is a girl,the father of the girl is now married to another person. i neva wish for all this to happen to me in my life you might blame me for this but it is only someone that knew the real meaning of hardship that will understand my story, after the 2nd child I decided to move on with my life n with the help of my mum cos she's the one the two kids are staying with,so with that m able to work n cater for them.I have started a new life n I am in a relationship with this guy n it's been 5 years now that we ve been dating (he knows about my past) I don't have the courage to tell him at first but I later did because he is serious with me and I don't want to loose the relationship cos after all that happened to me I deserve some happiness even if it is little and he gave me that, he accept me with that and told me to forget about it as it is my past,he has introduced me to his mom as his fiance but asked me not to tell his mom abt my past, last month the first guy I had a boy for ask his sister to call me and apologize,she was begging me to forgive the guy after ten years without knowing how I was surviving with the son all this years, well I told her ve forgiven him but we can't come back together again he should just take up the boy's responsibilities. Now my mom wants me to go back to him since he is now okay financially but my present guy is not he just completed his nysc last year and still searching for job, he is the one I love, I don't think I can cope with someone that left ten years ago n resurface now, even then I don't love him everything that happened between us is because of the money I was getting from him.please I don't want to hurt this guy that loves me despite me been a mother to two children with diff fathers, m 27 yrs n my guy is 31.my son is 10 n my daughter is 7.please help me out,sorry for the long post just want to give the details of what really happened. Even if your advice come with insults I will take it like that. What if the mother of my current B. F finds out about my past will she allow me get married to her son?or should I obey my mum and go with someone I don't have feelings for? (the father of my son) Please advice me a lot of questions are going thru my head right now