I am the 23 year old product of an affair my 18 year old mother had with her boss. She lived in Lagos at the time and was on her own when she met my father. Apparently their affair lasted about six months. After she got pregnant she moved to Kaduna for support from my aunt because she couldn't do it alone. We went through times without food, and slept on carton boxes at one point. My father and his wife stayed together on the condition that he couldn't speak to me. Things were always sent from him but I never had his number to call him. She made sure I couldn't have a relationship with him as a child. I only met him in person once and I had no idea it was him. We met at a store when my mom and I went to visit people in Lagos when I was about 6. He just stared at me the whole time and told her i was beautiful. around that same time my mom met her husband, the man who I call dad. He has done everything for me, he is fantastic and he makes my mom happy. My father recently died of a heart attack. I went to Lagos for his funeral. Everyone knew who I was when I shook hands in the line by the coffin. His wife hugged me and said she was happy I came. They had pictures of me in his memorial video that they must have gotten from Facebook. I was extremely angry, they had no right to use my private pictures. He has three other Children, and my sister closest to my age always calls me but I don't really respond to her. I took a picture of myself on my way to Ilesha with my family. I was growing a mustache, they all commented about how much I looked like him, so I shaved it off. Then I deleted the picture. I wasn't sad about his passing, I'm still not. I don't have any thoughts about wishing we would've had a relationship. I felt very uncomfortable at the funeral. I don't want them in my life, they weren't there for me when I needed them. But for some reason, I feel confused, i feel like I should get in contact with my step siblings. Please house, what do you suggest I do?