How should I get him to behave well.

Good day admin, pls keep me anonymous. I am writing because I need advice on what to do about this. I married a monster, he lies, he cheats and he beats me like a little child. We have been TTC for years but every time I take in, my husband beats me till I loose the pregnancy. So far, I have lost 3 pregnancies. The first one, he beat me without knowing I was pregnant, it was when I went to the hospital that we realized that I was pregnant. The second one, was due to stress and constant depression from all the deep thoughts he put me in. The third one, he came home late and I confronted him to know where he was coming from and he got angry and pushed me out of his sight knowing fully well that I was carrying his child and I lost that one too. I have tried to leave him severally but every time I go, he always comes back to apologize to me and tell me how sorry he is so I just always go back to him and i love him so much that I can't stand being away from him. None of his family members know what I am going through because he does not like family members pocking noses into our affairs. I am really tired and I want to have kids of my own. Please mamas, what do you suggest I do. How should I get him to behave well.