Good day house, please help me as I need help bad. I found a journal of my husband's this morning. I believe he left it out for me to read because he has done something similar in the past and it's full of pain on his part. But I really don't know if I truly believe him, even in this journal, I think it's manipulation on his part to get me to do as he wants and I just really don't know what to do or what to think. It's all about him and how he loves me and needs me to help him with his medical problems. He says his balls hurt all the time unless he has s.x and, well, you know, can that be true for a man? I feel so damned foolish for having to ask this stupid questions, he says I'm the only one who can help him, he says that he doesn't want to have to find another woman to help him with this. As I type this I have tears that are in the back of my eyes but just won't fall, it's like that for me now, I just can't cry anymore. I feel the pain, my heart hurts but that tearful release just won't come and I feel myself get hard inside, almost cold and I don't like this feeling. So I wrote him a note back and laid it all out there for him to read because he won't really talk to me I don't' know what to do. I tried talking to my friend about my marital problem but I've decided that it's not fair to my friend to lean on him during this time. I have decided that I'm not going to talk to him for a long while, it's not fair to him to my husband or to myself or our kids, so I will face this crap alone, like I've always done and see where things end up. Can my husband really get better?