Good day house, please I need you to advise me on this. Last week I confessed to my husband that 4 months ago during a work night out, I had a one night stand, At the time we were not agreeing on much and having many conflicts but he had told me many times that he wanted to fix the problems with us. The night I cheated, my husband and I had a huge argument and feeling were very hurt, when i went out i'd had too much to drink & after the fight i wanted to hurt him back and i did in the worst way possible, I have no excuses except i was drunk and stupid! I originally didn't want to tell him because i know i will never be so stupid again and i didn't want to hurt him just to ease my own conscience but i couldn't get it off my mind and i couldn't sleep or keep lying to him. My husband started shouting at me and he gave me a dirty slap (which he has never done before), After i had told him he looked at me with hate and walked out. When i got home that night, I saw that he had smashed the bathroom mirror and spent the night at his friends place. Although he's now back home and said he wants to get past this he wont acknowledge me much, if i try to touch him he walks away from me, We have been together 7yrs, married for  2 & I have never seen him so angry with me. So far the only physical & emotional contact i've had with him was two nights ago when we made love, It was the roughest s.x i've ever had, he was being very rough with me and didn't seem to care he kept making intense eye contact and when i asked him not ej..ulate into me, he did. After wards, he wouldn't talk to me & just went to the shower, I felt used and i feel like he hates me, I know i I deserve everything i get and i don't blame him for hating me but I cant lose him, I love this man to death, He is really nothing like the person he is being right now, He has never been like this. I just found out today that I am pregnant with out first child. Losing him is not an option to me i love him too much, Please give me advice on how to save my marriage?