Mamas in the house please help me out here. I have been married for 4 years and since I got married I have been TTC. I got married in my first year in marriage but I had a miscarriage at the 5th month. I took in again 2 years later and I had another miscarriage at the 4th month of the pregnancy. My husband told me not to worry that we are still young and that at the right time, our baby would come. Last year June, I took in again and I was so happy my pregnancy entered 9 months, I couldn't hide the excitement, although I was warned by my pastors not to take any picture till after the baby, on my 9th month, I felt so comfortable so I took the pictures, I took o many pictures because my friends even threw me a baby shower. I gave birth to the baby through CS and the baby died few minutes after the operation. The doctor said there was a complication blablabla. I have been sad and depressed for weeks now and on top of it, my MIL came to my house ranting like a lunatic and accusing me of killing my own child that I used my nonsense pictures to kill my baby. How can she say such a thing to me, is it my fault, can't she see that I am also hurt? I just wanted to show all those people that called me barren that God had done it for me and shame all of them. Was that too much for me to do? Please encourage me please, I am really sad and I don't want to be insulted as I can't stand any more of it.