Hello mamas and papas in the house. I am very grateful to God for his mercies. So in the last year my life has change a lot. I have come out of an abusive long term marriage that my family was never in support of in the first place, but I thank God that I am now living happily with my 15 year old daughter and learning to enjoy life again. I’ve another older child who’s already left home, I’m in my early 40’s so I decided to get myself back in the market, I hooked up with a friend last weekend after a night out, it shouldn’t have happened as he’s married, but we have been getting pretty close, and it kind of just happened and we didn’t use any protection. The next day when I could think again, I realized it was right at my fertile time, 14 days in to my cycle which is very regular. So I ordered some pills and took that about 40 hours after the deed. I don’t know if I’m pregnant or not, and can’t test for a couple of weeks. I know if I am it will change my life majorly, it’s not something I’ve even considered in the last 15 years as I thought I’d had my kidschild and was getting to the stage where she was responsible for her life and I could start going out and holidays and doing my own thing. I know if I am I would never have an *bortion, personally I just can’t do it, it would ruin me. No child I ever bring in to this world would be unloved or made to feel not wanted, I’m prepared to step up and be a proper mother if it comes to it. But I don’t want to trap a friend either if I am. He’s married and I don’t want to ruin his marriage. So I figure on this one I have just got to wait a couple of weeks and see if I am or not. But the thing is now it’s really got me questioning if I actually want any more child? I’m really questioning what I want out of life and I know it would mean I’d be nearly 60 when the baby reaches 18, but I don’t know if that’s a good or a bad thing, it seems mad to be thinking about this again at my age. Looking for some perspective please. Kindly advise me on what to do

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