My Ex Tokunbo (Toks for short) is one of the few good guys in town and I would have loved to spend the rest of my life with him, in fact, we had already started talking about the future together. Not until a day he sent me his details for me to fill a form for him and I found out his blood group is AS.
Inwardly I cried even before telling him we are incompatible, I’m AS and I made the mistake of assuming he’s AA which would have made us a perfect match, 2 months after I found out, we had to part ways but my heart ached and it hurts like mad after breaking up with him.
Four years into my marriage with Dipo, I met Toks again, we chatted a little and his compliment about how I keep looking cuter everyday left me feeling warmer than I would like to admit. Even the hug we exchanged felt so right and we didn’t break off on time, we exchanged contact and parted ways.
Unknown to me, Dipo who is still unmarried started daydreaming about having me back in his life or at least getting some “honey”. The night my husband cheated on me, Dipo was the one I called, he sounded understanding and called me out to have lunch with him, that day, I met him at a nice restaurant.
While talking, I burst into tears, he held my hand warmly and looked into my eyes while telling me how I deserve better and shouldn’t allow any man tell me anything else, I wondered what that meant, my husband loves me, and his cheating on me doesn’t change that fact.
I wouldn’t do the same though, not even to rub it in his face, but just as that thought occurred to me, the image of the passionate nights I had with Toks, the sensational massage he gives me before the “do”, the way he worships my body, our entangled body in the sheets, and the sweetness of him entering and thrusting into my wet self with all vigour and the grunting and screaming that welcomes our release flipped through my mind.
I had to shake my head to clear the image even as he reached forward, touched my cheek smoothly to brush off the tears and hold my hands tenderly again, I melted into his touch.
I know it’s wrong, but at that moment I was the faithful beautiful woman who had just been cheated by her husband and who is feeling crushed and low, and there she was being treated like an egg by a man who she knows can make it all go away.
We parted ways, both of us feeling like we lost something, although we shared a kiss inside his car before and it left me feeling giddy and wanting more, I’m sorry but I loved it. I can’t remember the last time I’d been kissed before that day. All my husband does is just rush to the business.
I got home that night to meet my sober husband, he knelt down and started begging, telling me he wouldn’t have told me everything if he doesn’t love me, I looked at him and all I see is shit, a man unworthy of the love and commitment I’ve put into our marriage. I forgave him though, and dumb him thought it was okay to have sex with me that night, but his touch made me wince as if I was being prickled with nail. I rejected him without thinking twice.
After that incidence, I’ve met with Tokunbo like 4 times and although we haven’t had sex, I know I’ve cheated on my husband with him. We steal a kiss every time we meet.
Now I’m at the point of no return, I’ve had two kids for my husband, and I love him, but now I don’t want him (sexually) anymore, and I’m sure I’d end up making love to Tokunbo on one of our meetings, in fact, I look forward to it, just to feel the way I used to feel after his touch.
This will break up my marriage, I can’t help wanting it, I crave my ex’s touch, want him and I imagine the sexual encounter we’ll have when we finally do and it’s making me feel giddy inside.
I need help!
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