For Me, Pregnancy Is Hard Work
I know many are women who think pregnancy is hard like I do, but how many would dare talk for fear of being criticized? I'm not a murmurer but if I feel somehow about something I'll say it. I'm pregnant and when I was telling my friend about how I hate the extra discharge I've been experiencing,
"You should thank God for yourself, some are wishing for what you're experiencing" I was hurt, I want this pregnancy but if I don't like the things happening to my body am I wrong to talk about it?
I'm thankful and why shouldn't I, I have two children already and this is my third pregnancy but I don't love everything about pregnancy.
I love only three things about pregnancy, the baby movement, the outcome i.e my baby and the pampering I get from my husband and everyone else. And that's all.
Every other thing ain't sexy at all. I hear some women say they miss pregnancy and I wonder what they missed about it.
I hate my pregnancy mornings, my face look puffed up and pimples filled, the first food I eat in the mornings end up in the toilet for the first three months and I can't even sit for long! My feet will be swollen and my shoes will be hurting my feet.
I have to say to those women out there who are looking for the fruit of the womb that may God open your womb so you can experience the joy of children, but I don't want you to be like "she's ungrateful"
Like I said earlier I am, I'm just not going to follow the crowd's notion that pregnancy is beautiful 'cause for me, it's not! It's just like the proverbial black pot out of which comes out white pap, pregnancy is yuck but from it comes a beautiful human that you'll love more than life itself.
There are days when I have to wear two pantyliners a day because of excess discharge, I don't like the way I smell, my hair pulls out when I comb it.
My sweet husband, bless his heart, is always trying to assure me that I look beautiful but I don't ever remember being beautiful during pregnancy, when I sneeze or cough I pee and if not for pantyliners I would have been smelling of goodness knows what!
I rarely get 5 hours sleep, talk of 7 hours sleep. I wake up often at midnight, sometimes to adjust my position as no position is ever convenient for me or to pee (there are days I pee 6 times before daybreak). Then I'll wake up the next morning sleepy-eyed and looking like an owl.
I've not even talked about the fear, the fear that something is wrong with the baby if he fails to kick, I thought I would have overcome that fear after my second pregnancy but even now that's my greatest fear, losing my child. I'm constantly in a state of fear and anxiety as I suffered pre-eclampsia with my second child. What would it bring this time around? I often ask myself.
This is my third pregnancy and No, I've never enjoyed pregnancy and I'm not enjoying it right now. I disgraced myself in front of my mother-in-law yesterday, my husband smacked me lovingly and how did I repay him? With fart!
I laughed so hard and I fart and had to go out of the living room out of embarrassment. I've not been able to look my MIL in the face since yesterday, who farts in the face of her mother-in-law? Ask me!
I think pregnant women have the right to speak about the things they don't like about pregnancy without being held in the neck for it.
Mamalette! What are the things you don't like about pregnancy?