Good day house, please I need your advice. What am I doing wrong? My boyfriend and I have been through a lot together. Loss of loved ones, sickness, everything. And we have the most wonderful 3 year old son but he doesn't want to marry me. Just talking about getting engaged puts him into defensive mode, I don't know what to do. He is my best friend and I love him so much. As crazy as it sounds I still get butterflies in my stomach when he walks through the door and light headed when we kiss, but I have always wanted to get married to him. I was completely against the whole idea of marriage and kids until I met him. We have the kid and I still want to marry him. I just don't think it will ever happen.I don't want to give him an ultimatum because I don't want to lose him. The thought of losing him is enough to crush me. Its hard to describe. I don't think I could ever feel this way about another person. I have been thinking about this a lot ever since my dad died this past March, Just a few days before he died, my dad asked him when he was going to marry me and he couldn't even answer him. I feel so sad because I do want him and only him forever and at the same time there is this feeling that he doesn't feel the same way. I know I deserve someone who cares for me the same way I do for them.. But I want it to be him.